So habitual had it become that I dragged my drip stand all the way to the toilet only to remember, once sat, that there was no drip and I was not attached. I hurried along hoping to get back to my bed before anyone came in and saw what I had done. This morning saw a few hours of respite as, even with tubes dangling from my arm, I gained a level of freedom of movement not encountered since yesterday's shower. Had I have known I would have delayed the 'one armed wash' I am becoming so expert at. Once you accept that there will be water everywhere by the end of the process the rest goes smoothly.

It has been a slow day and these four walls are now beginning to close in. There's a picture of two fishing boats in a Cornish harbour at low tide that I have invented an entire back story too. I'm wondering about asking for some paint so I can decorate the walls. They don't need it but it'll kill some time.

I have been very tired today. Frequent naps between feeding and drugs has been the general theme. I have also been a little nauseas. Not in a dodgy food way; more in a too much beer last night kind of way. Ah, if only that were the case. I assume that, with all white cells destroyed, and hopefully the hairy ones, my body is now filling my marrow and blood with some fresh, new and non-malignant ones. That is probably pretty hard work under the hood. I'm happy to take it easy although first thing this morning I had planned to do a little work to try and throw some normality into the day.

An impromptu nap soon saw an end to that.

The blood transfusion that started yesterday finished today and I now look a more normal colour. Bags under my eyes have gone as have tiny blood spots on my skin. I get small twinges under my lower left rib that I hope are my massive spleen shrinking but it could just be my stomach rebelling against the hospital food. It is not wholly bad but it lacks fibre and in a lot of cases flavour. Thankfully because I am neutropenic I get a hot meal at lunch rather than just a sandwich. It does however mean I am working through the menu quicker.

Tiredness is overcoming me once more and another snooze is in order. I'm hoping that the next few days will see a steady increase in energy as I continue to recover and eventual step out into the outside world.